"There's a hole in my heart the shape of you..."

I was watching the Emmy's tonight, so excited about Modern Family's wins! But more excited about the song that found me. I think many of you can relate that anytime there's a story or a song that you can relate to you fall in love. I fell in love with "If I Die Young" because of the way it makes me feel and tonight during the Memoriam during the Emmy's Jewel sang a song she wrote, "The Shape of You". Wow, mom was in the room so I just listened to the lyrics and focused on my Sudoku game. Whenever I see pictures of those who passed and listen to lyrics such as these I just can't while holding back tears. Needless to say I've already downloaded it.

While googling it I came across a little briefing of her performance turns out she actually wrote the song for a friend that recently passed away from cancer. Wow, I love this song even more because I feel exactly how she probably feels when listening to it. It makes me want to write (not blog) I'm more of a poet than a song writer but it inspired me. I can only find live versions on YouTube but it is available on iTunes. Also, I found it difficult to find the lyrics so I want to share them here...


The Shape of You

verse 1
September sad and softly
Leaves are starting to fall
I recall, last time you were here
Your laughter a melody that lingers still

Chorus

There's a hole in my heart
and I’ll carry it wherever I go
Like a treasure that travels
with me down every road
There's this longing lonesome ending
kind of bitter, kind of sweet
There's a hole in my heart
in the shape of you

verse 2
Time steals so swiftly
Children having children of their own
and around life's merry-go round goes
and there you are wanting what you cannot hold

Chorus

verse 3
Even though my heart aches
There's a smile on my face
Just like a window to heaven
There's a light shining through

This hole in my heart
and so I carry it wherever I go
Like a treasure that travels
There's this longing lonesome ending
kind of bitter, kind of sweet
There's a hole in my heart
There's a hole in my heart
There's a hole in my heart
in the shape of you



There hasn't been a single day that I haven't thought of MaDee. Since February I've done a lot of soul searching and since graduation I've questioned a lot. Job searching and really just finding my place in this crazy world has really made me miss her so much more lately, I relied on her advice a lot and can't help but feel selfish now. All I can do is pray about it. This is why I love songs like this for me it helps me deal the same way writing does. I'm grateful for life and the people who have been there for me through the ups and the downs- I know I'm going to find a job and continue to pursue happiness but like the song says there's a hole in my heart.. and it's not from romantic heartbreaks it's from true love the love and loss of a near flawless friendship. <3 I love you MaDee.

"Hold a true friend with both hands."